Hardil's Dilemma

Hardil types a letter in great urgency. He pour all his thoughts, before he forgets them. But then he lingers just before clicking the “send” tab. After a moment of indecision, he decides that some thoughts are better left unsaid. He thinks he should “delete” the words, which he had typed painstakingly.
A love letter never meant to be sent. A “love history” always cherished by the individuals but not shared as the couple.
His first impression was that Pari are a typical bookworm. His latter realization was that, “They share the same dreams” Hardil was pleasantly surprised, when Pari told him YES!
But things went BAD. It turned out that they were very very different.
There have been moments when Hardil rewinds to that moment of longing … that moment of hesitation before he proposed. Like now, before he pressed the “send” button.
Their “love” had grown, nursed by distant phone calls and occasion meets. Driven together by “providence”, “nurture” and “care”, they consummated their relationship. It was filled with delicious explorations, pure fun and true “love making”. Their long distance relationship had taken its toll on their emotions and much time was spent in constrained silence.
In the end, when it was time to part, something was sorely missed.
Is it just the “feeling of love” that Hardil missed? One would say that they were in love with an “ideal person” who was more “virtual” than “real”. Could it be because they filled up the silences with their own perception of the significant other? Was it that they never made any new memories together, even when there were opportunities?
Once Pari said that she did not recognize the person she fell in love with. She said she was afraid, that Hardil had totally changed and cared for no one anymore. Hardil thought “May be that was true.”
They were having bad times for a long time and it was becoming like a love story where you know that the hero and heroine are going to separate in the end.
Now their perception is clear. What Hardil saw were two losers, who wanted to have a “Safe” relationship. The “knowing” that the other will not let you down, whatever may be. Today despite having realized each other’s dream, they still cannot let go of this “futile relationship”. What’s the reason?
Hardil still has to decide whether to press the ‘discard’ button or the ‘send’ button?
He is still not sure whether the “Love then let go” concept is right?
Hardil calls ‘Dhaval’!
To be continued……